Life Abundantly - One step at a time

I feel like the fog is lifting. I have had a tough time facing the world beyond my covers. Don't get me wrong, nap time is a beautiful thing, but it cannot be a consuming thing.
I have kind of hid out this last week. Granted Tim was on a mission trip and Hope has had bronchitis (now Corban does too). But it allowed me time to hide out and to process. The time has come to choose to re-engage and get back to life.

I have withdrawn for practical reasons, and also out of fear of disappointing all who have witnessed this miracle. I know I do not have any control over this I realize, but somehow felt a responsibility to hold onto it. I want a rock solid faith. I want God to be glorified through this all. I know my message was from God. Am I in some way not holding up my end of the bargain?

I heard an awesome message this week on Psalm 40. You have to read it to get the extent of the impact.

Psalm 40
For the director of music. Of David. A psalm. I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry.
2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.
3 He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the LORD.
4 Blessed is the man who makes the LORD his trust, who does not look to the proud, to those who turn aside to false gods.
5 Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders you have done. The things you planned for us no one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare.
6 Sacrifice and offering you did not desire, but my ears you have pierced; burnt offerings and sin offerings you did not require.
7 Then I said, "Here I am, I have come-- it is written about me in the scroll.
8 I desire to do your will, O my God; your law is within my heart."
9 I proclaim righteousness in the great assembly; I do not seal my lips, as you know, O LORD.
10 I do not hide your righteousness in my heart; I speak of your faithfulness and salvation. I do not conceal your love and your truth from the great assembly.
11 Do not withhold your mercy from me, O LORD; may your love and your truth always protect me.
12 For troubles without number surround me; my sins have overtaken me, and I cannot see. They are more than the hairs of my head, and my heart fails within me.
13 Be pleased, O LORD, to save me; O LORD, come quickly to help me.
14 May all who seek to take my life be put to shame and confusion; may all who desire my ruin be turned back in disgrace.
15 May those who say to me, "Aha! Aha!" be appalled at their own shame.
16 But may all who seek you rejoice and be glad in you; may those who love your salvation always say, "The LORD be exalted!"
17 Yet I am poor and needy; may the Lord think of me. You are my help and my deliverer; O my God, do not delay.

There are many things that speak to my heart in this passage. The message primarily was on how even when we keep our eyes focused on God our heart can still fail us in times of great difficulty. I am not sure who the speaker was, it was on Moody radio, but he talked about how we often put to high of expectations on ourselves and we are shocked when our faith is rocked. He didn't say that exactly, but it is pretty catchy huh?

Here was David whom God just rescued from the pit, who has a new song in his mouth, who is faithfully proclaiming what God has done and wham! Troubles outnumber and overwhelm him and his heart fails. Sound familiar...?

The message is to not stop there! I cannot stay beneath my covers and be overwhelmed. God has rescued me, he has been faithful before, he will be faithful again. The point is to keep crying out. " O Lord save me! Come quickly to my help.../yet I am poor and needy; may the Lord think of me. You are my help and my deliverer; o my God. Do not delay."

I,like all of us, am a work in progress. I know God will use this and I know he is healing me day by day.

I choose to live life abundantly, one step at a time.